Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Hope no matter what



On this day, 18 years ago my husband of 21 years walked out on me....I spent the next few weeks doing everything I could to convince him that it was not the right thing to do...  I was not successful in my persuasive words..even though I had what I thought was the BEST argument...not to get a divorce was the supreme goal..

I still do not really know why he chose to divorce me anyway......

It was the darkest day of my life.....Nov 7, 1994......all of the life was sucked out of me and I didn't think I would survive.  without telling my story, you cannot know me....that I am the woman I am today because I went through this time in my life....it is my testimony.....and we overcome by the words of our testimony..so this is a small part of that season.....I think there are many people today feeling the same feelings that I felt on that day..when life threw me a curve ball

It is a sad story of what he did to me during the months that led up to the final divorce decree....I had no money and no job experience and I was over 40....my children were grown and leaving home.  I lived in a rented house and drove an old car....you get the picture....he had not cared about me at all...I asked him over and over not to divorce me...

and that is where I found myself on that life changing day 18 years ago.......

BUT GOD...............

I turned to Him, really turned to Him..no playing church would do....I was dependent on Him for everything and He came through over and over and over....and He transformed me into a strong and overcoming woman....
I regained my confidence...  I understood love and forgiveness and how to fight for something I believed in....even if the outcome was not what I wanted.....so that is where I find myself today...the election was not the outcome I expected or wanted......

BUT...you know what????     I am filled with HOPE because I have seen God take a less than desirable outcome and turn it in my favor before..and I know that is the kind of God I love...  He always takes care of His own....

Today I am happily married to a man that loves me and cares for me...we own a house with acreage..and my car is not old and broken....and  my confidence in who I am is not demeaned every day....

things can turn out a whole lot better than we think they can..sometimes we just have to walk through the fire to get to the place where life is better than before....I have walked through the fire and come out the other side.....

Today I am thankful for my experience of divorce because it caused me to take a long, hard look at who I really was and let the God I love transform me into who He designed me to be..

There is HOPE......no matter how dark it looks to you, there is a light that shines if we keep looking for it.......

Thank you for reading my words.I hope they have imparted hope to you...

Mona

4 comments:

  1. Thank you, Mona! You inspire me & today, of all days, we all need to heed your words. Let's release yesterday's outcome.... it is what it is.... and live in peace, knowing that God will take care of those who strive to live for him. I love you, Girl!

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  2. But God...those two words in this story are filled with so much dear Mona. You know I have had a similar experience and have hope. I am not happy about what has happened but answer a higher call than our government. xo, Olive

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  3. Mona - this is beautiful and you know that I need this encouragement today. I have not gotten to the point where I have hope for the future, yet, but maybe with time...

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  4. I am pleased that you are happy now. I saw your earlier post about being a grandmother again – congratulations to you and the proud parents and many good wishes to the baby.

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