Monday, November 7, 2011

dreams and desires


It is pleasant to see dreams come true

A desire fulfilled is sweet to the soul

Desire realized is sweet to the soul

All of these are different versions of Proverbs 13:19.......

Seventeen years ago today my world collapsed..the world I had known for all of my adult life......the blood, sweat, and tears I had poured into a life that I thought was okay by my minimal standards..the world in which I had raised my children and built my home.....it was all I knew........and in the blink of an eye, it was GONE!    I was thrust into the world of being separated and going into divorce all in a matter of two days...  on Sunday afternoon I was married and on Tuesday, I was being served divorce papers by the sheriff in my driveway.......boy was my life different in a matter of hours.....all I had ever known was being married....I had a lot to learn and not a lot of time to wallow in what I didn't know...so I decided to run through the fire and not hesitate...
..ok, ok...it took a little while for the reality of it all to sink in...  (.AFTER 4 months of non stop crying.)

I started to make some decisions..even with a fist in my gut and living on the verge of tears all the time...I started to accept that YES..someone can do to you what you don't want done to you..there...I said it...  but I was determined to not come out of this being a victim..no sirree, no victim lifestyle for me....I would overcome this no matter what it took....I would come through this a different woman..and I would help others just as soon as I could get my act together on the other side of this....I would not run from the pain..I would RUN THROUGH IT!!!!..letting it do it's work in me just like the fire purifies gold.....I didn't really have much hope or much vision...just pain, and lots of it..

but I didn't quit..I kept going no matter how slowly I moved....just kept putting one foot in font of the other and  eventually got to the other side.....

so, you say...what do those verses have to do with all of this?

well, I will tell you..the path to my dream went smack dab through the middle of getting a divorce..it was not what I wanted but it got me where I had always wanted to be......a dream come true....

I had lived in rental property all of my adult life..I had treated each place as if I owned it but I was just a steward of another man's house......

I had wanted a big place...a homeplace....a garden and an old house....as long as I can remember............


if I had not walked through the fire..I don't believe I would have been where I am today.....living on my dream....yes, this place we call Winterpast is truly a desire fulfilled, a dream come true, a desire realized...
no matter what you are going through, there is hope on the other side..IF you keep walking...don't quit..don't give up...don't let go of your dreams and desires..they are waiting for you...our paths are different but they will get us where we're supposed to be if we trust that God is getting us there...but we have to MOVE our feet...He will not do it for us.

when I take time to look at this property we live on, I am overwhelmed at the goodness of God..that He chose just this piece of land for us and I had no idea how beautiful it was when we bought it...it keeps getting better and better....
here are a few pictures..I kept thinking as I edited the pictures...I REALLY do live here.....this is a dream come true....







thank you for stopping by today....and walking around our special place with me.......I hope to see you again soon...

1 comment:

  1. So glad you kept fighting for that dream of yours. The pictures attest to your persistence and commitment.

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