Monday, September 12, 2011

A Delicate Balance

Sunset at Winterpast

There is a delicate balance that we all live in our lives...what is appropriate and what is not???  how much is enough and how much is not enough?   when it is ok to talk about things and when it is not??   How do I share what has happened to me in my life without coming across as unforgiving and bitter?  how can I talk about something with grace and healing?  

In order to share life experiences that reveal the depth of pain I have felt so as to help you identify with them, where is the balance in that?  so that  you will know the pain I felt is deep and was life changing and not just a little bit of discomfort......and that I still had to deal with it in the right way..I still had to let it go and forgive them.....

so that you will know I experienced something similar to what you are experiencing and help lead you in a way that will be healing to you and will not keep you stuck in a prison of misery...no matter what it was that got you there...I want you OUT!!!!  and I want to help you get there......

I want to say to you..I was in there..I was stuck..I was hurt....I was mistreated..people that I trusted did things to me that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy..I know what it is like to suffer in silence...to wonder if anybody cares..especially enough to hear me...to help me..to let me cry this out....I understand emotional abuse....and it feels bad, really bad....

But, here is the truth..I got out......I am a free woman today.....I am no longer locked away in the prison of my heart...I hold my heart open to love...even if there is hurt again..it is worth it not to close off my heart...and you can get out too...but you have to want to....

So I hope you will stay with me as I try to decide what is the delicate balance between what can be shared without causing further hurt to others and speaking the truth to help others get free...
I believe we as southerners tend to just 'be nice'..and that means NEVER talking about anything..sweeping it all under the rug and not dealing with anything...
I want to be true to what I know in my heart...and how I got to the place where I am today...and I think I will have to share some of the stories about what has been done to me in order to let you see who I am and what has helped to shape me as a woman......

All of my life experiences have pushed me into GOD...into getting to know Him better and be able to hear what He has to say about a matter or a person......His friendship is more important than any other...

also sunset at Winterpast..another perspective..

thank you for being along here in my rambling....I appreciate you...

1 comment:

  1. Mona - I love that southern comment about sweeping things under the rug - Mother always used to tell me not to hang my "dirty laundry" out in public! I think you do a wonderful job and this is your blog, after all. You can write whatever you want and, if other people do not like it, they do not have to read it!! I love it and I think many other people do, too!

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