TRUST

¹trust        : assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something 

  : trustworthiness

a (1) : a charge or duty imposed in faith or confidence or as a condition of some relationship (2) : something committed or entrusted to one to be used or cared for in the interest of another 


I am realizing that I have some real trust issues...I think I am at a point that I can choose to continue like I am or look at this and see what needs to change.  I had rather change....I have many reasons that this has happened in my life....a divorce, sibling rivalry, friends betrayal, misunderstandings, jealousies  and a myriad of other reasons too.. 
There are only about 3-4 people in this world that I trust to have my best interest in mind in our relationship.  I totally trust my husband and children ....


There have just been too many instances where someone portrayed themselves as one way and when I got closer or became more trusting, they turned out to be totally different...I am quite accepting of people as they are and am not in the business of controlling others or thinking I know what is best for them.  I am talking about relationships where there is intent to demean or deceive another....to pretend to be trustworthy and then behind my back prove they are not....


I want to tear down the walls of self protection that I hide behind...maybe learning about boundaries and enforcing them will give me more freedom....I know who I am most of the time....and I am a really trustworthy woman so this is one of the reasons I am baffled by this....I don't understand the ability of living without feeling remorse for hurting another person....without trying to make things right again...oh well......


A very wise friend once told me and Bryan when he was counseling us...
Watch these people and learn WHAT NOT TO DO!!!!!!!
sometimes that seems so negative.....but it is what we are doing at this time in life.  ..
there is enough grief and bad things going on in our world without us adding to it......
Be quick to ask forgiveness when you hurt someone....Be quick to offer a helping hand when you can....don't betray your friends.....and don't hide behind sayings like everyone you meet is hurting so be nice to them.....
instead, BE NICE TO PEOPLE......love folks....
I know what it is like to be betrayed and to be ridiculed and I am learning what not to do.....this life is too short to live it in the negative......


LOVE NEVER FAILS.....real love, that is...not the fake ooshy gooshy stuff.....the real thing...the God is love kind...
if you made it through this post, you need a medal....LOL   me being real this morning.....thank you..